i can't say anything other than "i love you" "i care" or just stating everything i love and care about you
so um
ill do all
i met you back in 2016??? when i first met mel,, i think it was like? during christmas or something cause it was when she shitposted bout the grinch n shit but
when i saw you on her page somewhere and went and looked at your acc i immediately wanted to be friends with that
i was so socially inept when not even a year ago and that didn't help me trying to talk to people i wanted to get to know?? obviously
but um,, i met you !! you probably didn't meet me,, but i saw your profile !! and i really just,, i dunno
you chatted with me and i was?? so excited and giddy and just ready to talk 24/7 with you and just laugh n shit and?? it made me so happy when we starte talking
and every time we have a lighthearted discussion about some random fucking topic it,, it still makes me the same if not more than the amount of happiness i felt when we?? talked in the beginning
you've made me laugh and cry and just,, you've made me happy through the time I've known you
you're clever with your words and always manage to say just the right thing whether I'm feeling down or if you're just trying to make me laugh or somewhere inbetween
you're honestly?? beaut from what I've seen even if most pics of u are shitposts lmao and i love ur freckles i wish i had them tBH
you're really,,, you're really important to me,,
you've helped me so much by just being there
you've listened to me ramble and be a prick and just ??? all this shit
and you've been there and you've cared and you've listened and helped
and i really need that, I've really needed that and you?? go out of your way to give me that
you make me feel like i matter and that I'm special and
i wish i could do something for you to repay that
I'm always so scared to comments on vents because i,, i dont ever know where to begin or how to state i love you without telling you what everyone else, including myself, says
I'm always terrified to try and help because i think everything i do is for naught and I'm just,, a big mess who doesn't know the first thing about making someone feel cared for
I'm scared of dark places, high views, silence, a lot of things,, but I'm never scared of you,,
i connect with you so well?? i ddont know what i did to deserve you,, you're completely out of my league but somehow you still,, talk to me,,
seeing you hurt and in a concerning place makes me worried and anxious and i know you've told me not to worry but i still do,, i still care and i still worry and I'm still paranoid and i still keep vents in my notifications so i can look back on them and see if anyones tried to help so i can know someones tried,,
I'm probably not helping,, I've probably never helped,, but i sstill care about you so much
wtf am i even saying anymore
in conclusion i love you,, no matter how many times i tell you it all has the same amount of meaning and value,,
i do care a lot,, i do care i do care
god I'm
what am i doing?? why am i still typing
you mean so much to so many people
you mean so much to me
you've helped me so fucking much with everything,, you've helped me break out of my "anti-social" shell,, and even if its still for the most part there, its still progress
i love you,,